Source Statement and Final Proposal

FOUNDATION YEAR (the skeleton)

Throughout the semester, I have been exploring this combined source of being with someone vs. being single, with emphasis on the pros and cons of each. For the final, I have further dug into this source to identify that my interest in this source is one of a questionative nature. Love confuses me. Love scares me. Love is something I think I want, but why? Because I am supposed to? My questioning love and being so unsure is expressed through my work all the time. I have come to see that I constantly bury myself in my work for two reasons. The first is to avoid the undeniable loneliness I constantly feel inside myself. The second is that I use my work as a tool to hide behind, helping me avoiding human emotion and human connection. As much as I want it, it scares me too much to actually go for it.

Now to make this soul searching really connect into my final source project, I have realized that my interest in my original source was because although single, my work is my greatest relationship in my life. My original comparing and contrasting was merely me trying to figure this out. As I mentioned in my source statement, I constantly keep myself busy with my artwork. Besides all the school assignments, my favorite thing to do is write music on the piano. Through this entire year, I have written fifteen new songs all reflecting on my experience with going to art school and my never satisfied quench for love. For my final, I want to really wrap up my work on these songs, which collectively, are titled “Foundation Year”. I plan to use paintings as backgrounds for a new artist book of the poetry that make up FY as well as a fifteen song demo of the instrumental version of FY. To top it al off, I plan to do some sort of in class performance as well, just not sure of which kind I want to do yet. I feel this is the best was to end my freshman year. I am going to SIM next year and hope to someday see these songs staged as a musical punk journey through the insanity of love and art school.